Promises As Sticky As Post-It Notes

Scenario: You are caught in a decision trap. The situation could be anything...it can be a matter of life and death, or a relationship with someone.

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Sometimes it hurts when you can't say no,and end up saying 'no'. It also hurts when you end up saying 'yes',plant a commitment (and register a promise in the other person's mind), then all of a sudden, the wind changes its course...YOU BREAK THAT DAMN PROMISE. What's worse is, it stupendously became either a 'talent' or a 'hobby' of that person to break his words. Its not just the "tokis" type who would swear in a goofy manner. NO. What I happened to encounter were people I trusted so badly who looked TOO sincere, TOO determined to keep that promise and I was that OVERLY reliant and OVERLY expectant girl.

I don't know who I should feel sorry for. Myself for letting those conniving words get to my head? Or those people (this post is not just about one person, its about every single [broken] promise I heard so far in my lifetime) who dropped them?


Can you avoid these instances? Another issue, is it me or do I sometimes feel other friends of mine take me for granted? As if they remember me when they need me to accompany them in their wells of problems with their lovelives, when they need someone to help them out with their English projects...


Gah. I'll post no further. I'll stop here. Something else to post the next time (*Winks!). Poor little emotional me.

The Difference Between Cats and Dogs.

Cat [Christians] have this "You pet me,you feed me,you care for me,I must be god" concept. Dog [Christians] have this "You pet me,you feed me,you care for me,You must be God" concept. See the difference?

Its in the book Cat and Dog Theology that I admire so much because it presents in the simplest way how two types of Christians could "pray the prayer", sing the worship songs, go to church, and still differ from the motives that they have(using cats and dogs as representations.)

The 'Cats' are a little hypocritical. They only glorify God according to the blessings they expect to receive in return, they do not want to leave out of their comfort zones and their vision of salvation is shortsighted. Why? Because while walking towards heaven, they're walking backwards as they move away from hell. Their idea of salvation is to secure to themselves that they will not go to hell because they have accepted Christ. In other words, they're missing the bigger picture.

'Dogs' however, while walking towards heaven, hell is behind them. They keep their focus on who they serve other than being attached to the thought of going to hell because this focus is what really matters.

Salvation and the death of Christ do not force us to be godly people all of a sudden. Its a message that means Jesus was the ULTIMATE SACRIFICE for our sins, because the wages of sin is death. He is the only one who can overcome death so He had to sacrifice Himself for us to be renewed and given a second chance...to repent and live a life pleasing in His eyes. If we choose to give thanks to Him and pray to Him,and glorify Him only in times of happiness and prosperity,forgetting His lordship when we experience trouble,then something is wrong with us.

God does not need miracle workers, but people who believe in Him, surrendering their lives to Him, not making Him a final resort, but the only reason for living.

I now take the Web as a tool to publicize how God has changed my life, my family,everyone else...how my life is not worth living if not for a cause of "dying everyday" to fulfill God's purposes for me. I didn't create myself so I cannot tell what the primay function of my existence is, but because I am created in God's image (and so are you),its He alone who can manipulate us.


I encourage you, whether you're already a Christian or not...please don't be a 'cat' and think that God exists to serve you and become egocentric, but be a 'dog' willing to obey his Master,so His glory could radiate through You and in turn, bless you so greatly and maintain a balanced relationship with Him like a Father to a child, loving Master to servant,Friend, Savior...everything else you could ever ask for.



Just believe.



PS: I highly recommend that book I mentioned :]

Mudra.

My mother.
-had a security guard fired from Goldilocks from being sarcastic and being disrespectful.My mom's such a warrior.
-can criticize everything, from the way a person dresses,to politics, to how commercials nowadays are so corny.
-has highlights and had her hair straightened.Heck,she's already 43,I think she has every right to do whatever she wants.
-has more graphic t-shirts than me. O_O
-can annoy me to my guts with her incessant and tormenting blabbering.Exhibit A, she picks me up from school, and all the way from Kalayaan in Subic down to our home, she would ask me things,talk and talk and talk to her heart's content,ridicules me for being morena just be because she's a few skintones lighter than me...that kind of stuff.
-is maarte talaga.Even my dad agrees on this one.
-is like a tiger...no,a dragon...when mad.A very strict disciplinarian,perfectionist,protective,mega hygienic,sometimes the biggest universal KILL-JOY...but most of all:


I was conceived from her.
She constantly teaches me to be as strong as possible,keeping always on guard and standing firm for the right principles of life.
*She would wake up so early in the morning to prepare breakfast for us.*
Her sacrifices are incomparable.
She now works again because she knows it would help a lot,disregarding the stress at home and her personal life.
She's a leader.
She's beautiful.
She's God-fearing.
She's firm.
She's my mom
and I love her.


As I type this,LIGHTNING AND THUNDER STRUCK ME THREE TIMES saying: "You don't give her enough credit.Tsk tsk."

Emo Diaries series-Track 1

Is it an obligation? Because my apathy cannot tolerate it. Is it my responsibility? But my negligence isn't affecting my conscience. Should I look for it? They say it must face its crossroads and come to me. Do I need to be impulsive with emotions or keep my logic and follow my gray matter?


Love is so complicated that you might not even think that the paragraph above is about love. Amor. Pag-ibig. Whatever. So twisted and deceiving. A guilty pleasure? I think not. I think it is an emotional guillotine. Yet masochism takes its place in love, because moments of pain could still ensnare the essence of admiration for the other party because love also causes blindness. I'll try no further [explaining how I perceive love]. In simpler terms, love makes the world go round. Period. Then again, ang corny ng buhay and the real fun thing about it is that love can either keep the sanities of men together or give them the madness they weren't expecting.


"MU".Crush.Boyfriend-girlfriend.Married.You're madly in love.You become hurt.You argue.Have some coffee and work it out.Reconciliation.Who's to blame?No one.Everybody happy.You get jealous.You test each other's trust.Commitment is self-explanatory.Some in secret,some are legal.Lucky you, "the parents" trust you enough for a commitment.You argue again,break up,and realize you needed some time "for yourself" or whatever unexcusable excuse (errr...right) you have to get out of the relationship.You miss the guy.He already has someone new.You hook up again because you feel that he's "the one".Guy misses you too.You talk it over.*POOF!* After 50 years,you're still together.And not even death shall put a period on your love story.



Love is ever so fun,isn't it?



IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT - New Found Glory
Album:Coming Home


It was a cold California,
Even in the summer,
She was wrapped in a blanket by the pool,
There were rapid statements,
About life commitments,
A sense of heat that I couldn't bare to touch,
I couldn't bare it.

It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
Please stop your crying now,
Woah,
Woah.

There was staring and seclusion,
A fine tuned way of motion,
A face wrapped for a suitor,
The sound of hearts pumping at the same beat,
Coming 'round the corner,
In almost all directions,
A sense of heat that I couldn't bare to touch,
No, I couldn't bare it.

It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
(It's not your fault so please stop your crying now)

It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
(It's not your fault so please stop your crying)

Now you, wait for, something, to cure this,
Well I'm here, under your downpour.

No, woah.

It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
It's not your fault so please stop your crying,
It's not your fault.

It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
(It's not your fault so please stop your crying now)
It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
(No, woah)
It's not your fault so please stop your crying now,
(No woah, no woah) (It's not your fault so please stop your crying now),
It's not your fault, stop crying now,
(No...)

All I Wanna Do is Grow Old With You.

Cue: Adam Sandler's "Grow Old with You" from the movie "The Wedding Singer". I forgot the date, but there I was...I just stepped out of the gate to cross the other road (to wait for a jeepney) on my way to church. I saw these two...this golden couple (but I think they've passed the golden year! they look really old), and the
grandma was still clucthing and suspending her arm with her husband's, and he slightly leaned closer to her as they walk past where I was about to wait for a jeep.
They walked a little further and I had this sudden urge to capture a picture of them,
because seeing how old they are, they're still so sweet and it just (though corny as this may sound) sort of "moved" me.

Adam Sandler's song immediately played in my head during that time...and seeing their smiles and their sweetness,I had the attack of the great Daydream Syndrome. (ok I just made that up)but yeah,aside from Deja Vu,I always daydream. And I imagined myself aging gracefully with that one person I never thought I'd put up with for so many years. And I still have no idea who that could be. Haha.

Magpakita ka na sa akin kung sino ka man! :]

Guess Who's Back.

No more links. Just a chatbox. And a comment thingy. I'm back with my 5th blog since 2004. I know it sucks to keep changing (1)my layout, (2)my blog URL. hey, you can't really blame me. all of us are still on the verge of self-discovery, meaning we'd have to try out new things to fulfill that need to uncover an equally new angle of one's personality and interests.

so this is how its gonna be. i'd post no links, but i would be keeping track of those blogs i really love visiting.my tagboards still pretty much alive, so yeah...and that comment thingy from haloscan.

ayun! i was just so busy so i quit blogging for a while. told ya i'd be back. :))