MOVED. YET AGAIN.

http://poetic-chaos.blogdrive.com

i just missed the old identity =) i'll be going back to basics.

BLOG BREAK.

Doesn't necessarily mean a hiatus. Just gonna pause blogging for a while. ^_^

Emo is Gay.

I don't really know if emo really is gay, but I'm not posting about what emo's definition nowadays is. But I'll probably get there at some point as I type.

I'm a little furious for an issue that is not really for me to be bothered by, I don't know why I'm so affected. Some sophomores from our school (WHICH ARE HIGHLY SELF-CONFESSED EMO PEOPLE. GAAAAH. FUCK THAT) was stupid enough to cut themselves, but I'm not sure if they used a blade (point is, they cut themselves!), their hairstyles are very against the school regulations, and when called to the principal's office, they took the chance to blackmail some of the teachers they hate and commend negatively on their teaching methods and the way they're being "ridiculed" by those teachers.

Oh, now I know why I'm affected. Its because napakalaki nilang epal. They're science high school students. They should know better. Hindi na nila naisip yung mga sarili nila (were they possessed?) at yung reputation ng school pag nalaman na naglaslas sila kasi it will be no one else but the school itself to be blamed for pulling that off.


I hate the way they walk the corridors like some rebellious creatures, and how pathetic emo's influence in their life is.

Way...way...waaaay late Prom Post

THIS SUCKS. MY POST IS A LITTLE LATE. LIKE, HOW LAME AM I.

So prom night was WAY, WAY, WAAAAAAAAAAAAY fun.I don't know where to start. How

often do you see the people from your school all dressed up, their hair fixed, the cadettes

(ahem) looking so feminine...?!?! basta!!!. February 15 is definitely a date to remember.

I shall lose all formality in this post, haha! Kwento style muna ko, kids =)

I took off my heels at some point during the evening, but I eventually wore it back haha. The

venue was lovely, the food, everything! Even my hosting skills was put to the test (I was one

of the emcee's :] ) That night was like a dream, a trance, yet every dance,every smile and

laughter is three-dimensional.

I danced with Sir Raymund (our precalculus teacher), guy friends--Jay, Aldrin, Dan (he was

my longest dance and the most um, intimate?, we danced to three songs I think haha.Trust

me, we're just very good friends--it just so happened na may kinikwento ako sa kanya...ah

basta.),Jommel(woohoo!nominated for Prom Prince hehe), Allen (winner ng Prom Prince

harhar!), Josh(who was shorter than me, but nevertheless we enjoyed our dance!)... thanks

guys!

The party ended at exactly midnight. Medyo bitin, but its ok =) I didn't see a single

frown last night, even from the parents who chaperoned, they looked so energized

seeing us like socialites.

What else? Lots and lots of picture-taking, asaran on who will dance with whom,

more picture-taking of pairs [close to us] that we never thought would be so sweet on the

dancefloor (and also the pairs na ineexpect na naming sasayaw, but just waiting for the

right timing).

Gaaah. I'm seriously laughing at myself for posting this now,oh well. I want another prom :)

By the way, I'm very much addicted to Grey's Anatomy than when I got hooked on CSI. And

uh, I have a crush on Dr.Shepherd!Ü

February 13.

Sadly (I think), I cannot think of anything to post at the time. I've noticed lots of people have become tired of blogging. Oh well.

I've been thinking for the past ten minutes about what to type in this free, blank space of online wonder called blogging. This is the best post I can come up with before Valentines =p

I want to...
fall in love
have my first kiss in the rain
eat pizza all day
contribute to world peace
take thousands of polaroids
jump and run on the beach
lock myself in my room and listen to my mp3 for hours
eat chocolate and not feel guilty about it
dance shamelessly
sing out of the shower
live in a large house with a music studio
adopt 10 dogs
fly
scream my lungs out on the rooftop
give roses to everyone on valentines
follow the rules next time
explore space
publish a book
visit another country and become a world-class traveller
manage my very own tshirt shop
learn how to ride the waves
ride a motorbike
go parasailing
conquer my fear of snakes
BUNGEE JUMP!
SKY DIVE!
become invisible at will
die happy









MEET MY CREATOR AND LIVE WITH HIM FOREVER.

UPDATES :)

Woah. I survived one week without internet. Yeah. I wasn't able to buy my net card 'cause of too many (and I MEAN MEGA EXCESSIVE) expenses the past weeks, plus I've been busy anyway together with the Junior Club (as the org always acts as the prom committee).

Update, update. Nothing much, days pass more quickly, I've noticed. Ayun, my week pretty much rotated with fixing the invitation for the prom and helping out with the program's final touches...oh, and my parents had an argument last night over the phone. I've never heard my mom so angry that night. I've heard her get mad, but last night was different. They made up the next day, so I guess it was nothing too major and I didn't bother to ask anymore.

One of the things that scare me the most is to have my parents argue, when in the past days, everything was going the way they should be.

This will be a short update post, but before I end, there's something I need to say...that I don't want to fall for the person who once hurt my friend a year ago, and who just broke up with a girl from his class a few weeks ago. Dang. Sana mawala to.


AND ONE VEEEEEEERY LAST THING, GLOBE IS SO FREAKIN' UNFAIR.

Mata sa Mata

I've been daydeaming about the guy who would sweep me off my feet though I'm sure I won't meet him that soon. But it doesn't matter, 'cause I'm actually having a fun time having eye contact with some guys I encounter in different places. Haha! Ilang beses nang nangyari sakin yun. I would spot a guy, look at him and somehow he'll feel my eyes on him, at mahuhuli nya ko. If I'm lucky enough to be noticed by that guy, we would end up having eye to eye contact. After nun, wala na! Pero at least, parang nakumpleto na ang araw mo. ^_^

Here are some scenarios that I remember, starting from the most recent:

* LAST WEEK, SA TAPAT NG MALL- we had an early dismissal so we decided to try out the Pizza-All-You-Can sa Greenwich (99php, you can eat as much pizza as you want, I only had 6, my friend had 17!parang vacuum!). So anyways, while ordering at the counter, I spotted a college guy together with his buddies. He was a college sophie because I know one of the friends he's with,so I assumed they're in the same year. Tall, messy hair, sharp eyes, and yes, I thought he was cute . Saglit lang kami nagkatinginan kasi dumiretso kami agad sa table namin. After we ate, we decided to check out some CD's. Guess what, I saw him again, and we ended up looking at the same shelf and I had urges to talk to him because he was looking right at me! (shamelessly, mind you). This time isang guy na lang kasama nya. Natawa na lang ako when we left, I saw him for the third time bago sumakay ng jeep. ^_^

* SA NUEVA ECIJA- I attended the Regional Training for Campus Journalists at Nueva Ecija and stayed there for three days. Sa unang araw, wala pang nagpapakitang gwapong nilalang sakin (please don't mistake me for a guy-hunter. trip-trip lang yung pagiging ganito ko), and for the first night (parang acquaintance), I saw this guy wearing a blue polo shirt at that time.Napansin ko sya kasi malikot sya sa kakatawa. Then,sabi nung emcee, we should smile at the person on the other row of chairs, and when I did, sakto he smiled at me. For the rest of the week, magkakasalisi kami sa pila ng food, or kapag may sessions. I found out his name was Aldaine, and he was from Pampanga. Nung uwian na, sabi ko sa friend ko, sana makita ko sya before going back to Olongapo, nag-SM San Fernando kami,and guess who I saw again with his teachers and classmates ^_^


*SA BAGUIO, TEACHER'S CAMP (National Leadership Training for Student Government Officers)- Held on Aug.16-21. Masaya, puro takas kami. Instead na makinig sa plenary session, punta kami ng Session Rd. or SM Baguio. When we arrived at the Teachers' Camp, napuno na yung place sa dami ng delegates so the other delegates, pati kami, napunta sa different hotels (we stayed at the creepy Concorde Hotel--sa sobrang creepy nagfu-full minsan yung status elevator kahit tatlo lang kayo O_O). I think its a big coincidence na yung naka-eye-to-eye-ko-dito-pero-never-nakausap, eh delegate from Pampanga. Matangkad sya, as in!, medyo slim but not that skinny. He looks like a model. I happen to see him at Albert Hall (mess hall) and sa group dynamics pag plenary sessions, kaso hanggang pag-uwi, I never got to talk to him. So far, I think he was the one I thought I should've really approached. =)


*LAST NA TO, SA JEEP PAUWI.- I was super tired this day(forgot the date). I can remember that this was a Friday. I was imagining myself hanging out with Mong Alcaraz (super crush ko sya kasi napakatalented nya),then someone wearing a red shirt stepped on my foot! Naka-kulay reggae pa syang hat. He was a little chubby, but it didn't matter haha. Siya nag-abot ng bayad ko sa jeep, tapos tinaggal nya shades nya and was reading a Psychology book. Akala ko nagbabasa siya ng seryoso, pero nung tinitigan ko sya mabuti to see if he's that good-looking as I thought he was, nahuli nya ko. Napansin ko din nakabrace siya which looked really cute on him; nakita ko kaso hindi ko alam kung natawa ba sya sa kalokohan ko.He closed the book and placed it back in his bag. Sometimes I'd look at him, pero nakadungaw sya sa bintana. Or I would pretend to look around but I would be hoping he's staring, though I'm not sure with this one, kasi parang serious ang tingin nya, but he doesn't look annoyed, mystified or dangerous hehe. Sandali lang ang moment ko kasama sya kasi maaga siyang nag-para.



So I guess it makes me appreciate na ang daming binagsak ni Lord na gwapong nilalang and that a geek like me could actually get noticed and smiled at. ^_^